Not so long ago, I was reminded of a past I had blocked out from my memory. It brought to mind how far I've come, but also where I came from. I found it to be quite triggering, to say the least, and caused my already unsettled morning, to go further downhill. The person I was a few years ago would have been completely shaken by this encounter. However, I hadn't realised the extent of the work and the power of healing that has been invested in my life. It dawned on me that things no longer hold the same sway over me as they once did. After that, I pretty much spent the majority of the day with it being forgotten about.
I write all this, as I wanted to discuss the realities of sometimes having to confront one's past, and it's truly not a glamorous scene to find yourself in. It's tough and emotionally overwhelming, and sometimes you're just not ready, or perhaps never will be, to delve deeply into the things you've been through.
My approach has been to look and move forward, always striving to maintain a positive mindset and finding encouragement in the beauty of my current experiences, who I've become, and who I aspire to be. Many aspects of life are beyond our control, and it's hard to predict if you'll ever be confronted with the remnants of your past. But I urge you to remember that you're not who you once were, and you don't have to be. Moments like what I went through can serve as reminders of how far you've come and that any lingering negative emotions, hatred, or resentment towards past situations can be resolved by examining your heart, allowing you to release things you didn't even realise were still weighing on you.
Reflecting on that situation, as uncomfortable as it made me feel, I harbour no malice or hatred towards the past or that particular circumstance. While it didn't make me feel great and I don't believe I need to constantly revisit it to prove that I've let go, but, I've found that I'm okay ( as I take a deep breath) and I will continue to be okay.
Anu Aborisade
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